Saturday, December 28, 2013

love and hurt and thinking

they bind us together they keep us alive, breathing

just barely and violently.

Saturday, March 16, 2013

the grind

the nothingness

the smallness of every day

the weight

                       sinking in

                       of nothing

                                                                      the wondering

                      the waiting

the endless waiting.

please hold me together.

Friday, March 8, 2013

when your chest caves deeper than it should..


                           you're barely even breathing. 

so you go on aching.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

like a blank slate- waiting to be written upon.
stinking eyes and a dizzy head.
the cutting wind blazing through the naked trees- just stand there.
deep breaths- caving chest- it still hurts at night.
everything is fine in the darkest blue of the starless sky.
everything is fine.
there's a stranger in the mirror.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

stupid enough to care

i look back at an old me
i look back at that young me, that old me.
that silly old, young fool.
i recognize the mistakes, i've dealt with the regret.
later rather than sooner, i moved on.
and now i don't know where to go.
and i know thats ok.
cos' i'm here living and loving right.
i have nothing left to say. 
and everything left to give.

Monday, December 10, 2012

5 years ago

i felt like such a little girl
that same little girl from 5 years ago
you looked so grown up
so different from 5 years ago
you remembered my name
i never forgot yours
i don't feel any different
from that little girl
and now its got me wondering
do you feel different
from that little boy?

Thursday, November 15, 2012

the fiddle that cried over the man who died.
8 handsome young men carrying a casket.
seeing but not feeling. pushing the wet thoughts away.
being the outsider once again.
and not understanding.
how one life comes into our hearts.
and one goes out.
that's all there is to it.